Happy Birthday

To you

Lullaby

When people asked me recently, whats my lullaby for the past years, the answer is this song. To be exact, her voice singing the song. Whenever I felt life being hell, and its really hard for me to sleep, I always play this song, on repeat, and it never failed to made my day feels better. Its like a warm hug that tells me, "everything's gonna be okay, dont give up".

Im not even interested in the song, its just, when she sang it, it made me feel at peace. The one who sang this cover is someone I truly love, and I never get bored to told people otherwise.

Your presence itself already a blessing to me, yet you bless me with this Lullaby too, thank you.

I never told you that this is my lullaby, since youre a shy one, yet, you got this angelic voice that I really glad I can heard daily. Hopes that you wont find this post haha, I love you, AFS. 

The Lullaby

Dream a Little Dream For Me

I had a dream last night

Im standing in a place that i didnt really know

Started walking aimlessly towards the road

In one place I met someone that I know

Hes someone from my workplace

He said to me while smiling

"Welcome, finally youre in the same position as I am, we're both supervisor now".

Im in awe

And suddenly the scene changed again

Now Im in an alley

Started walking again

And in the end of the road, someone came from the crossroads

Thats her!

I was shocked

She used to be my bestfriend, i care and love her so fucking much, but we're not together anymore, not even talking to eachother

She said "I miss you, where are you all this time, never leave me again".

Im stunned when she hugs me

Im in awe

And when my hands tried to reach her, to hug her

The alarm rangs

Im awoke

My pilllow's welcoming me to the real world

And quietly whisper

"Whenever you had enough with all that happened in real life"

"You can always put your head on me"

"And then dream a little dream for me"

And my phone rang

I was confused

The first alarm is also a dream

I look at my pillows

Thank you that yall always be there and provide me with all the comfort

When my head had enough for bullshit in the world.

A Question, for yourself, from yourself

"Dear Yoga, is this really what you want to do in your life?"

Perhaps, it is fun

"Really?"

I guess, Im enjoying things tho

"You sure?"

Well life goes on, might as well enjoy the ride right

"Okay then, last question. Are you lying to yourself?"

Yes

Brothers

Brothers

/brəT͟Hərs/

(noun.)

'a Person whom you are related to. Sometimes a role model, Sometimes an ass, sometimes a friend. a Person who you are stuck being related to until the day you die through good or bad'

Older Brother

/Older brəT͟Hər/

(noun.)

a Genetic disorder of having a male older sibling. They have two objectives on life, one to annoy the living piss out of you, and two to protect/ teach you.

Little Brother

/Litel brəT͟Hər/

(noun.)

The annoying little thing that always piss you off, but mums love them. Generally smaller. Quite annoying at times and seems to take great enjoyment in copying your everymove.

Dear little brother
I'll always gonna be that someone who'll makes fun of you
Annoy you
And make your life a living hell

And I'll also be the one
Who'll beat the life of any other living shit
Who tries to make fun of you

You're my bro
And no one makes fun of you
Except me

A Couple of Clown

The best relationship is when you're trying to be stupid

and they do even more with you

By doing something stupid together

You'll have a laugh

You'll be yourself

And you dont need to behave yourself just to get some approval

And you wont even give a damn hell whatever other people says

Because deep down you always knew

That there will always be

This someone that'll cheer you up with their every stupid ways

And made you feel that being normal is fucking boring

Like a couple of clown

- Y

This is a picture of the famous dead sea

People said its the saltiest place on earth

Little do they know that actually

Its second only to your salty ass bitch

The Hero From The Past

Im happy

For days now suddenly my dad and me talks more in chat

Im talking about my works and he talk about his new businesses

He told me that he wanna build a stockbreeding and plantation

For the future of you and your brothers he said

And while at it he always gave his best honest opinion about what should I do

In the end he'll leave the rest for me to choose


I really miss those talks with him

For me as a child he is the hero I depend on

He is the one that I look up to


We went to a rocky time in my teenage year, my highschool year

I wanna do what I wanna do

Yet he always push me to turn into something that he wanted to

The harsh words that came from his mouth stab me deeply

An argument between a teenage brat and his stubborn dad


The chemistry are gone that time

Its like we went a seperate way but still looking out for each other

Like two ship in a middle of mist

Knowing that theres something near but keeping the distance for the better

And the hero from my past turns into something I wanna prove my self to

Even worse, someone whom I hate occasionally


But these few days my mind wondering around to the past

The time when we still share a laugh like a bunch of peas in a pod

I remember when he drove me around travelling aimlessly just for fun

And carry me when I fell asleep to bed

Then he'll slap me when I do something wrong

But then he beat the living shit of someone who made me cry


In someway, I miss my dad

And Im thankfull for everything he done from the slap to the hug

Whatever things we've been through till tonight

In my mind you're always be my hero, Dad


I pray to god that you'll stay healthy

Because one day Im surely gonna make you proud of me


To my hero from the past

To my closest friend

To my worst enemy

To someone who I'll always love till the end of time

To you, Dad


I Love You

Random Lullaby

My mind works in such a funny way

It works in such a random way 

Every thoughts come pouring in unexpected time


Growing such a curiousity about everything in between

On a random place and random time and even about the most random things

Read my previous early few post and you'll saw my mumbling 

Every words of it doesnt even meant anything in the real life that day

Not talking about someone or something as in specific

Getting those thoughts in words here only just to erase those random lullaby that sang happily in my mind


Those words are the way to communicate between my consciousness and the sound in my head

Example is that time when I'm playing games in PC, while my hand is holding the controller, my eyes focused on the monitor, but my mind wanders away about someone who lies

Lurking about the moment when someone lies when you already know the truth

Under those odd conversation with my self which has no meaning whatsoever in my current daily life

Random Lullaby sings happily while my physical body doing another thing to get through the day

I call her the devil

Cause she makes me wanna sin

And every time she knocks

I cant help but let her in

High Five

I really wanna be as high as this five right now

Kota segaris, jutaan kenangan

Selalu indah di kala malam

Orang bilang ini negeri mimpi

Tiap sudutnya penuh arti

Sebenci apapun mereka dengan kota kecil ini

Di satu titik

Mereka selalu ingin kembali

Selamat malam Jatinangorku

Eye didnt see

Its funny when you know about something but someone still lies or hide it away

And you just play along, being stupid, and nodding your head smiling

"Ohya?"
"Hoo gitu"
"Okede haha"
"Au deh"

The usual catchphrase that came from my mouth when that moment arise

Its hard enough to act like you dont know anything when the fact is you know too much, and even harder when its by accident

But thats none of my business isnt it?

Better to just play along

Because when someone thinks that youre easily fooled, you'll know the nature of that someone

And when the time come, I already know what to do

"Ohya? Haha okede"

Those Words

Its friday 4th 8pm

I was working my ass off meeting the head of online driver in Jatinangor near Bunga Mas.

We were chatting a lot of how business done here and whats the flaw and all those complains.

He told me that he and his team would help me if I needed any. I dont know either to trust or just play on with it, but what the hell, let me try to build a hope towards people for the beginning of this new year.

And if in the ends it bounce back to me, at least I learned something wouldnt I?

It may cost me my job, but, theres nothing wrong to held your ends to somebody once a while, evenly onto a total stranger.

Im trying to start to trust people again

I had a chitchat with Andri afterwards and went to Hermit to buy some coffee for the vicehead.

There I met Vincent, a junior from campus whom I knew from The Hermit.

He's bringing that book, the book of poetry.

I just took a glance at it since Im not really into those short of things, at first.

After the usual chitchat here and there, I tried to open that book and read some of the content.

Im amazed

Those words lined up perfectly, even someone like me whos not into poetry got mesmerized by the words.

Its written buy a guy named Remy Sylado.

I cant stop reading his words, it took my soul and attach it into it.

I remember one of his poem

Its named

ANTARA MABUK DAN SIUMAN

Pernah dari rasam yang mengitari diri

turun cerita dari para pandai rawi

bahwa perbekalan cinta hanyut di sebuah keangkuhan

cadarnya tanggal dan matanya telanjang

tiada tali yang mengikat ekor sejarah

Apa yang diharap dari mabuk ini?

Pernah dari salam pada nyala api

yang mengobar menyingkirkan kesumat

kubiarkan asapnya memedihkan selaput mata

bersatu kabut dan menyusunnya jadi perjanjian

kuambil tali dan mengikat cinta pada sejarah

apa yang diharap dari siuman ini?

Dalam mabuk aku tak pernah takut

pada siapa pun

Dalam siuman aku selalu takut

pada diriku sendiri.

Im stunned

I really am stunned of those last sentences

Dalam mabuk aku tak pernah takut

pada siapa pun

Dalam siuman aku selalu takut

pada diriku sendiri.

I do mr Remy, 

I do

Im terrified of myself when Im sane

When Im all alone and sane, and those logic, thinking, and thoughts buzzing in.

Im afraid of me

I got too many flaws to count

And too many sins thatve been done and will be

Im afraid of dissapointing people, and mostly, myself

Im afraid that every step I take would dissapoint myself in the future and my past self.

But when Im drunk, I never afraid of anything

Its like being a bird, wandering around in the skies freely

Im free

Maybe this is why people love being drunk, or high

They were free

At least in that state, nothing else matter, just you and yourself, minding your own business

I always knew that being mature is hard, but I never knew that it would be this hard

So

I'd rather being a child than to be mature but drunk all the time

Its so simple yet so hard

But thats life folks

Its not a fucking wonderland

Dear my future and past self

Please dont be mad at me

And if one day Ive done something that would crush us

Please, remind me of own self

Me

New Chapter

Its been years since the last time I write.

Since tumblr got blocked by the ironic indonesia's censorships commity I lost my will to write

And now I have gone to the next chapter of life

The campus days are over for years

The laughters, the silliness, the sadness, and every flavour of those chapter had long gone. Its already an end of an era

Theres a lot of thing goin on that I want to write, to tell here, but I dont even know where to begin.

For starter, lets just say, life got more complicated, new challenges has been noted, but the fun is also there.

Lots of thing comin is surely not easy, but an easy thing wont be fun, might as well just enjoy the ride

So

Like how those awkward conversation with the people from the past started, let me begin the first writing of the new chapter by saying,

"Hello, how are you"

Its a weird day after all

Jadi kamis kemaren gw janjian sama fresil buat jalan bareng di bandung. Belom janjian juga sih, doi ngeline malem2 nanyain gw ada kerjaan ato engga besok dan baru bisa gw bales jam 1an karena batre hape abis, gasempet dicas karena dari jenggo galangsung pulang tapi nemuin anak2 flag football unpad di Che.co. Waktu dibales, eh doi udah tidur, dan balesnya jam 6 pagian.

Malam itu gw engga tidur karena abis dari ceco, gw, akbar, eki, sama geri pada nginep ditempat idang, niatnya mau ngelanjutin obrolan ngalor ngidul yang tadi diobrolin sama anak2 di ceco, terus abis itu mau main truf.

Nyampe kostan idang, yang dilakukan pertama adalah tiba2 kita main tebak2an riddle yang didapet geri dan eki dari kaskus. Gw lupa websitenya apaan aja yang gw inget cuma 1 dan ini yang paling banyak riddle serunya.

Mainan riddle itu doang aja ngabisin sampe 1 1/2 jam-an. Dari selesai main riddle kita mulai ngobrol ngalor ngidul lagi, ngebahas agama, atheis & agnostic, sejarah mitologi kayak dari yunani dan mesir, obrolan2 mistis setan2an, dll.

Obrolan belom selesai, karena wacana tentang masa depan unit flag football unpad pun diangkat. Kita ngobrolin gimana kira2 masa depannya, gimana pemain2 barunya, gimana caranya supaya unit ini bisa terus maju dan engga bubar, gimana caranya nurunin mental, prestasi, dan kepercayaan ke anak2 barunya, apa peran pensiunan, tentang manager, nostalgia2 jaman dulu, dan banyak lagi. Begitu sadar, matahari udah terang banget bersinar di jendela.

Dan itu juga engga selesai disitu doang, obrolan lanjut lagi abis gw beli makanan ke pembahasan tentang cult movie, surrealist, sadistic dan yang berhubungan. Disitu kita ngebahas salvador dali, film2 cult/surrealist/sadistic yang keren, dan nonton ulang highlights film Cannibal Holocaust.

Disitu gw udah beli kopi item 2 gelas karena udah janji mau jalan sama fresil jam 11, dan sekarang udah jam 8 jadi gw gamau tidur, karena kalo begadang gini dan tidur biasanya kelabasan. Eh ternyata tetep aja tidur.

Gw kebangun jam 11 dan ternyata anak2 yang lain pun udah pada tepar semua, dan begitu ngecek hape, si fresil udah nanya2in gw dimana. Buru2 deh cabut ke kostan buat mandi, ganti baju, dan siap2. Tujuan gw kebandung sendiri sebenernya mau ketempat servis hape karena batre hape gw bocor dan ngegembung gede banget sampe engga bisa dipakein case belakang.

Akhirnya sekitar jam 12an gw cabut ngejemput fresil di soetta. Dari situ kita cabut ke tempat namanya Yellowtruck, tempat ngopi yang buat gw cukup pewe di daerah bandung. Karena udah lama gaketemu, kita ngobrol banyak, gw cerita tentang apa aja yang gw alamin dan gw pikirin dinangor, dia cerita tentang dia, tentang gimana dia akhirnya nurutin omongan gw buat ngomong sama mantannya dan ngelarin masalahnya, terus dia juga cerita kalo dia akhirnya jadian sama salah satu penyanyi.

Kita nongkrong di yellowtruck sampe sekitar jam 8an, dan lanjut cabut ke daerah deket Maranatha buat makan malem disana dan kenalan sama cowok barunya fresil yang kerja di salah satu les musik didaerah sana.

Skip skip, makan dan basabasi, kita cabut jam 11an dari sana, tapi ternyata emang kalo jalan sama fresil ada aja sialnya, baru jalan bentar tiba2 muncul ujan deres banget dijembatan pasteur, yaude mau engga mau kita berteduh dibawah jembatan. Begitu agak redaan kita jalan lagi dan baru sampe deket taman lansia ujan deresnya muncul lagi, akhirnya kita neduh di warung kopi pinggir jalan sampe jam setengah 2an.

Kita segera cabut begitu udah agak redaan dikit, dan baru nyampe lampu merah pertama, lampu depan motor gw pecah karena lampunya panas dan diguyur abis2an sama air ujan. Ditengah jalan juga sempet kena guyur air gara2 ada mobil nyalib dari belakang dan ngelintasin genangan air persis disebelah.

Akhirnya nyampe kerumah fresil, minta maaf sama nyokapnya karena kemaleman, dan langsung cabut pulang kenangor.

Disini petaka muncul lagi. Diawalin dengan hape gw tiba2 gabisa baca memory card, jadinya gabisa dengerin musik secara jalan pulang. Begitu nyampe daerah gedebage, ternyata banjirnya lebih tinggi dari perkiraan, banjirnya tuh sampe sejajar sama mesin motor, ya karena ude terlanjur mau gamau diterobos lah doi. Baru selesai nerobos banjir, motor gw mati karena beberapa mesinnya kemasukan air, jadi mau gamau didorong dikit supaya airnya agak turun, terus dikutak katik supaya mesinnya panas lagi. Baru nyampe cibiru eh bensin gw abis, berenti lagi dan dorong lagi ke pom bensin terdekat.

Pada akhirnya nyampe kostan, gw dengan lemes karena baru tidur bentar banget, capek, keujanan ngeloyor lemes kekamar. Dan nyampe kamar, ternyata internet mati.

Shit

Hetdaaaaah hari campur aduk banget.
Tapi seru sih haha, ini bakal jadi hari yang dikenang banget. Dari obrolan ngalor ngidul macem2 sama anak2 Flag Football, ketemu fresil yang akhirnya bisa move on dari bayang2 mantannya, sampe nerobos ujan bego dari bandung kenangor.

Mungkin waktu kejadian sama sekali engga ada seneng2nya, yaiyalah! Busuk banget ini ada aja sial dimana2, tapi saat sekarang, saat gw mengetik cerita ini, gw engga berenti senyum2 dan ketawa waktu nginget2 kejadiannya haha.

Sepi

Mungkin memang bener.

Gw udah terlalu nyaman sendiri.

Disaat gw mulai suka bareng orang lain, gw jadi ketagihan pengen bareng terus,

Dan waktu orang2nya ilang, mulai muncul suasana yang dinamakan sepi.

Perasaan yang engga mau gw rasain sering2.

Kayaknya lebih baik gw balik lagi kayak dulu.

Ngapa2in sendiri, kemana2 sendiri, gaperlu ada yang ditunggu, cuma ditemani diri sendiri.

Karena disaat gw udah biasa sendiri lagi, gw engga akan pernah takut ngerasa sepi.

Dear ms. Princess

So right now i'm quite fed up about something, more about someone actually. 
The thing is that some of the moment already happened in the past, and i'm quite chill while dealing with it, so i didn't considered it as a problem. 

And i've got the flashback and the furious feeling towards it today. So i went to Gerobak Kopi Jenggo in the evening as usual, and randomly met some friends whos not a reguler there, lets just call them the bird and the bee. 

So we do a little chit chat, talks about memories, talks about hows the future gonna be after some event that recently happened. And then after some chat and laugh, this topics came out in the conversation. The bird told me that this subject (lets just call her princess) bad mouthing me behind my back a few years back. I don't really mind about it at first, but then it went on and thats the time i realized, she's not only bad mouthing me once, and i'm not the only victim. It just hit me that, "Woow.... i don't really know that you have such a freaking double standard towards people, especially me in this case". And the bees also told me that she was once also been told by that girl to stay away from me because... i don't know... i'm kind and playful to her? And shes not they only girl that has been told that way, theres some others too. And their mind was set at first because the way that princess told them to. 

But as time goes by, it almost i don't know, 2 years maybe? The first time those thoughts and words, those silly freaking double standard idealism went out her mouth, and to make it worst, those words that supposed be thrown at me, she throw it to others, she provoke them. Well okay mam, if you have problem with me, please do talk to me directly, not by bad mouthing in my back while do a smile to me you cry baby piece of shit. 

I never curse this much when talking about a girl for quite a time, my mom didn't raised me that way, She always told me that i have to put a lot of respect towards girls. I'm sorry mom, but while thinking about it again and again and again, i feel like that this piece of shit has successfully ruin my image, she provoke others to think about me the same as how she sees me. 

What i mean about the double standard here, is this:
- When men (me) being kind to a girl (beside her), she said that the men is flirty, coquettish, and the girls need to stay away from him
- But she demand that the mens have to be nice to her
- And when the men decide to step away and be normal, even minimize the interaction to the girls, she'll said that the men was weird, grumpy, and has a problems and have to deal with it. WTF??
- And when some mens (who was close with her, or often scold her about hows she do things) close with those girls, she sees it as normal, as some good friend with different sex. But when the subject change to the men whos not that close with her, she'll judge him as a playboy, womanizer, and then provoke other girls to stay away from that men. Okay.... what did i do wrong here.... 

Okay, actually its not really a pretty big deal. But i fucking snap because of how could she said those things? Do i fuck one of her girl friend? Do i break one of her girl friend's heart? No fucking way. It seems like being nice and playful to girls is considered 'Something' to you, and like a disease, i need to be avoided. 

Hey, bro, i'm one of the people whos not judging you while the others do. I'm the one who stand up for you while others insult you. I'm the one who'll be ready to help anytime you need me. 

And this is how you do it behind my back? 

Do you know anything about respect? 

You're the one who told me that you didn't like to be judged, to not get respected, and to be treated harshly. SO WHY THE FUCK DID YOU DO THAT TO OTHERS

You piece of shit. 

Thanks god i'm still kind enough not to shove it all the fact down your throat. 

Maybe tomorrow i'll already be forgetting all about this. But for now, just for now.... its like this.... if your house is on fire, and i'm holding a bucket of water, i will definitely drink it and throw the bucket to your face 

Dewa Sial

Akhir2 ini gw lagi ngerasa jadi kayak semacam Dewa Kesialan. Semingguan ini gw ngeliat (dan nolongin) orang kecelakaan. Lagi diem2 tiba2 aja disekitar ada kecelakaan engga terduga.


Diawal dari hari kamis 9 Oktober. Waktu abis jogging keliling Unpad, gw iseng2 nonton anak2 kffu lagi latihan football di Lapangan Merah. Pas lagi bantu ngelatih OL-DL, tiba2 anak2 pada ribut2, pas gw samperin ternyata si Yogi udah tergeletak di tanah dan pas gw cek kakinya, ternyata tulang kering dan betisnya patah. Alhasil abis dibidai supaya kakinya engga gerak2, doi dibawa ke RS AMC dan dilanjutin ke Al Islam sampe akhirnya di jemput keluarganya


10 Oktober. Gw ngeliat jambret ketangkep dan dipukulin. Ini engga ngebantu sih, tapi tetep aja ngeliat orang celaka


11 Oktober. Jadi ceritanya gw abis jalan sama Adrian, Prista, Nando, sama Shendy ke bukit Moko dan abis itu lanjut makan di Pajawan. Waktu pulang kan gw misah karena mereka naik mobil dan gw naik motor ke arah berlawanan, waktu udah mau deket kostan, tiba2 ada kecelakaan, ada mobil yang kesenggol sama truk yang notaben supirnya ngantuk. Jadi deh galangsung pulang karena bantu2in dulu, waktu suasananya udah mulai memanas, gw pun cabut karena males ikut2an ribut dan gw udah ngantuk


12 Oktober. Hari ini ada acara conditioning anak2 KFFU. Nah sekitar jam 2an, gw cabut sama sherly ke acara fesbukan buat beli makanan disana. Abis belanja sekitar 1 jam-an, kita balik lagi ke lapangan basket Fikom. Baru bentar duduk2 dan buka makanan, tiba2 anak2 ngomong "goy goy itu ada yang kecelakaan goyy", pas gw nengok ke arah tanjakan depan pasca sarjana fikom, bener aja ada motor yang tergeletak dijalan, jadilah gw sprint kesana. Sampe sana ternyata 2 orang anak kecil jatoh karena katanya gasnya engga bisa dikendaliin, dan dua2nya itu panik nangis, terutama yang anak cewek. Disitu kondisi motornya ancur, roda depannya masuk kedalem. Setelah kita rawat ditempat dan temenin, akhirnya orang tua mereka dateng, jadi deh minjem mobil salah satu anak kffu buat nganterin ke klinik


13 Oktober. Ini ga penting sih, tapi waktu malem2 kan gw dari jenggo, dan sempet cabut bentar naik motor ke arah arnes karena mau ngomong sama.... ah skip ga penting, intinya pas gw mau belok deket dunkin, gw ngeliat ada cewek lagi nampar2 cowoknya dipinggir jalan. Itu random banget


14 Oktober. Hari-H gw nulis ini, dan ada 2 kejadian. Awalnya jam stgh 5an gw beli kopi di jenggo sebelom jogging, pas mau cabut kekampus gw ketemu si bintang lagi markirin mobil dan bilang kalo ada jambret lagi lari tadi dikejer, alhasil gw sama doi juga ikutan ngejer. Skip. Terus kejadian keduanya setelah aksi kejer2an itu, gw jogging keliling unpad as usual. Nah waktu abis ngelewatin fikom sekitar jam 6 kurang, ada banyak cewek2 pake almamater kayak abis dari suatu acara gitu jalan bergerombol, dan pas mau gw lewatin mereka nunjuk2 ke belakang. Pas gw nengok, ternyata udah ada 2 motor tergeletak disebrang pintu masuk keperawatan, dan tai-nya itu cuma pada teriak2 ngomong 'IIH KECELAKAAN IIH" DAN GAADA YANG NOLONG DONG GILE! Yaude gw buru2 sprint kearah sana sambil ngomong "ELAAH GAADA YANG BANTUIN APAA", akhirnya beberapa orang ngebantuin buat ngangkatain motor sementara gw ngangkatin orang yang tabrakan ke pinggir biar dirawat. Jadi tabrakannya itu antara vixion sama motor bebek, vixionnya cuma rusak dikit, tapi motor bebeknya ancur parah, bannya kebelah dong ancur banget. Dan cewek2 tadi bukannya nolongin malah pada nontonin berasa ini OVJ, ya allah, jadilah gw ngomel "yaudah jangan ditontonin dong" baru deh alhamdulillah pada bantu ngasih air dan tisu buat ngebersihin luka, terima kasih ya kalian.


Dan besok gw sama dewi dan pipit mau cabut ke kampung naga dan gatau lanjut kemana lagi, semoga rentetan hari aneh itu berakhir dan engga ditutup sama kejadian apapun di hari ke 7 yang jatohnya besok. Semoga kebetulan universal ini cuma kebetulan, semoga besok gaada apa2 selain seru2an jalan bareng bro2 gw yang sengaja cuti dari kerja mereka di Jakarta dan Bali ini. Amin amin

I’M TIRED

I need to be focused for my thesis

Maybe its time to stop


True, it is nothing worth having comes easy

It will be a shame to not finish what you've started, that already went that far

Remembering why'd you start at first only make it worst

Everything you do just to get that precious thing

Down to every little thing that maybe went to far


But these obscurity and fuzziness only turned out to be a major distraction

Running through your mind and makes it goes upside down

Only to find that, in the end, maybe you've had enough, and its time to stop, and think over about the bigger thing
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I'M TIRED BRO