Moody Guts

You know what i really hate about myself for this couple few months? My moody guts. This is growing to be really annoying. I can be happy as hell for an hour, and in the next hour i’ll be a grumpy bastard. This trait really gets me to some hellish life.

Example, a few months ago my-ex wants me to call her because she has lots of problem inside her head and need something or someone to talk to refresh her mind. And what i’m doing is exactly reversal of what a good boyfriend should be doing, not just i didn’t comfort her, i also being stupidly grumpy to her, and that sure is make her feel lots more uncomfortable

And next on my daily life, it sure is really disturbing when this mood things coming up when i’m around public. I can be the happiest bastard or the grumpiest bastard just by the counts of hours, or even minutes.

I know that the problem was only happens inside my head, but you don’t know how hard it is to control it. My father is a very emotional person, he do angry a lots, i mean it, lots. And that trait was sure to be inheritaged to me. But i also got my mom’s good trait that it was patience and endurance. So when the moody things starts to comes up, its like a war inside my head because two very reversal trait was having some disagreement. I don’t know, do i need a therapist? Hope not of course! Dude, trust me, i’m really are not a mentally retarded enough to be going onto some person who got payed by just listening to other person’s problem. 

Maybe what i need is something that will make me happy, something that will make me stay sane and can make me try as hard as i can to control that emotion and moody problems. I once had it, and because of my stupidity that was triggered by this moody problem, i lost it, and now it was someone else’s, she was.