Its really funny when you’re starting to realize, something that makes you happy, i mean really really happy for this past months was just a bunch of lies, and you didn’t even realize it. But the strangest thing is, that you didn’t even mad at all. You know how you really feels about that things in the first place, that you can’t be mad to it at all, even after you know the truth. The only feeling you had is sad and confused.

Is it hurts? Haha, it feels like being stabbed with a burning fork in the stomach, literally. 

What’re my respons after knowing all of this? Buying a pack of smokes and do a pack, listen to some stupid song, laughing awkwardly alone at a quiet place in the deep of the night, and start to think. Thinking and thinking and thinking………

Why, just freaking why!

If you know that it was all wrong from the first time, why do you always have the will to fight for it? Its because, you know… you’re the one that really know how you feel about it, really really know that it was worth to try 

Are you stupid or something? Nope, just being too honest with my heart that sometimes it makes my brains overload